I don’t even really know where to begin. This year has been pretty on and off for me. One minute it’s great, the next it’s not and that has taken its toll on my mental health.
I have been keeping my head above water for a while now but lately, it has been kicking my butt to the point where I just couldn’t keep up.
I thought of ways to keep offline without announcing it but November is my busiest month of the year. So I just couldn’t disappear.
So let me tell you why…
Elsa had her tonsils removed in the middle of October and everything was going great. Until just over a week later. She became very poorly and actually on the way to me driving her to hospital, she hemorrhaged in the car and I had to call 999. It was a very scary moment and from then, it just got worse. A few days in hospital and she was finally allowed put to rest at home.
While Elsa was in though, I received a call from my local police. My father had actually made a complaint about me. He didn’t want me to talk about the abuse that I want through anymore. The policeman wasn’t very nice ( I’ll put it they way) to me on the phone and for 3 days, I didn’t sleep and my mental health took a downward spiral. I was made out to be a criminal for no reason. There was no evidence brought forward, the police hadn’t even looked at my social media or my blog. He had already made his mind up that I was guilty. To be honest, I thought my career was over. I thought me being an ambassador for Pandora Project was over.
I got some legal advice from a solicitor and 3 days later, the police phoned to say there wasn’t even a real case. They had dropped everything and I have actually done nothing wrong.
My abuser was trying to silence me again.
This has all hit me like a ton of bricks. I’ll be ok in time, I’m feeling panicky again. I feel like my PTSD is rearing its ugly head once again. I thought I was over this but one event can bring it all back.
I’m hoping to be back fully now and back ready for Christmas events ❤️
The Coastal Mummy 