I can’t believe it has been 3 whole years since that day in 2019. It doesn’t seem possible that life has changed so much since then.
There is a trigger warning for this post and like I always say, do not read if you think it will affect you. It is ok!
13th January 2019.
The day we found out that we had a miscarriage.
Looking back now and comparing then to how life is now, it is unbelievable to see how much life as we knew it has changed. We were in and out of hospital for bloods and scans. Now, I don’t even know how anyone would be able to do that alone. With most hospitals still only allowing one person in, it just doesn’t seem fair for people to experience this alone.
You feel alone anyway in this situation but to actually be alone must be heartbreaking.
3 years has gone by like a flash. We have our rainbow baby now but that doesn’t stop the heartbreak. It never has and it never will. We lost a piece of both of us and it hurt like hell. It really did. It was completely unexpected. It was a stab to the chest that we never thought we would have to get through.
But we have got through it. It still hurts. It always will. The loss of a baby at any time is just as heartbreaking. The hurt is still there but the time since then just gets longer.
2019 was by far the hardest year of my life. We got our rainbow baby that year and we will forever be thankful for that but so much heartbreak and heart shattering stuff happened that year that it will always be tarnished with sadness.
Miscarriages are more common than people think and it could happen to anyone.
Another year. Another anniversary,
The Coastal Mummy 